Mental Health Update! (i.e. don't read if you're wanted music tips and tricks, unless they relate to mental health!)
Last week I had my first session with my new therapist, that was eye opening (to say the least) as I kept going on, unbeknownst to me, about not wanting to become The Horrible Person. Tomorrow I have to explain to her who or what The Horrible Person is, this means I've spent the week trying to decipher my own psyche to work that out...
Needless to say my head has been all over the place as usual; especially as I'm also attempting to fund-raise for a new album and tour, promote my current single, attend an online masterclass in music marketing, move house, work two days in London to be able to pay for all this and rehearse for your upcoming tour with Pendragon...
And THIS, this right here is the root of my problem.
I KNOW I do TOO MUCH but I'm unable to stop...
... as I said in the song See Through
"I can't handle the pressure I put on myself, can you stop me comparing to everyone else?
I need an answer to the emptiness in me, though it pushes and drives me so hard,
Can you See Through these scars?"
I'm sure there's a saying somewhere about spreading yourself so thinly that something bad happens. I can only assume that it's don't become a bad jam.
But maybe it's actually don't become The Horrible Person?
So, have I worked out who it is?
Well, yes I have. Unfortunately, The Horrible Person is me.
It's my darkest fear of who I am scared to become if I let go of my self-depreciating attitude, it is me -it is a confident version of me.
Who knows what's going to happen next?