Some of you may wonder why I put all of these down on here well its three-fold really...
1. I want to raise awareness and acceptance of mental health, especially in the music industry, and encourage others to start helping themselves to get better.
2. I use this as a kind of catharsis.
3. A lot of people are asking how I am, this is an easy way to tell them.
So, if mental health updates aren't your bag, don't worry they're not ALL like this on the blog, but if you're interested, suffering yourself, or conceded... read on!
So, where were we... I was put on sertraline. This has NOT worked out! It turns out that there's a 1/100,000 chance that your liver/blood will be affected by the medication with a serious side effects, and I was lucky enough to be one of those people (why can't I be 1/1,000,000?! ;) ) I came out with bruises all over my body for no reason.
Unsurprisingly, I was asked to stop taking this - my last dose was Friday. The bruises are fading but now I'm going through withdrawal and trying to work out what my new 'normal' is? You see - I've been on anti-depressants constantly for the last 10+ years, I don't actually know how bad I am off of them any more.
But I'm going to try. As this reaction has freaked me out and I want to see whether there's maybe a chance that I CAN cope without medication.
Its going to be a tough few months while I adjust, it might get to the point where I'm rock bottom and I HAVE to go back on meds, but I want to try.
I may be a bit all over the place, but it's gonna make for an interesting album!!
Love and light
xxx me xxx
We’re all running out of time,