You may have seen on my Twitter that last week I went to a talk at Meltdown Fest about Music and Mental Health. It was an inspiring talk where a few famous musicians, a mental health practitioner and a rep' from Help Musicians UK talked through their experiences with dealing with mental health in the industry.
But one thing struck me, they'd already made it.
The issues they were having, though no less deep, and advise they were giving wasn't as pertinent to INDIE musicians, as they didn't have the same pressures on them that we do >> That constant chasing of likes, streams, and follows - that we're almost FORCED to chase or "no industry rep will look at us".
I've spent the last week thinking through the advice that they gave, that it should be JUST ABOUT CREATING THE MUSIC. And I agree, it SHOULD be.
If you create music, you're doing it out of a passion a need to create, but most of us also want recognition; we're chasing the dream. When the world is oversaturated with people trying to make it, you don't know where to look, and your posts on social media soon become lost in a haze of people saying the same thing ... LOOK AT ME ... and that kinda becomes too much.
I know we're all struggling with the need to be heard, but HOW do we do that in this landscape? Unfortunately, I don't know.
But I do know that I'm not coping with the way it is.
It's so constant and so overwhelming, music industry peeps won't touch you unless you have x-thousand likes or follows or streams. But most of this can be faked, we're living in a constant circle-wank of 'like for like' and it's just not real.
So I've decided to go old school. I'm just gonna be me, and see where it takes me. I'm going to work on myself, and getting my music better and better, and getting myself better and better and see if THAT makes a difference. Because, having reviewed it, I don't think that like for like gets you anywhere, and I'm pretty sure industry execs don't give a damn about it either. I'm not sure that kinda thing is going to really, truly get me anywhere, as I know when I look at my timelines and see fake engagement I'm not interested in it. Yeah I know this is controversial, and I should clarify that I am ALWAYS here to support my fellow indies, but with REAL comments and love, not with false engagements. If I LIKE something, I will LIKE it.
This may be the end of me, or the beginning, or maybe just a strange dark patch in the middle while I revaluate. But thank you Meltdown Fest and Help Musicians UK for giving me the time to think about this, and the strength in my convictions to carry it forwards.
As always, I'd love you to join the conversation, so if you want to comment on this or have a chat with me at any point, you know where I am.