Woohoo! My first blog entry onto my new website, I should say something profound, but at the moment I can't say anything as I'm on strict no-speaking orders to try to remedy my cold (which is sitting nicely around my voice box.)
Why The Doorway?
I've chosen this photo as it represents the journey I took to get to where I am now.
5 years ago I told my best friend that I was going to sing for a living. I wanted it so badly - it was like looking at a really pretty door, wanting to go through it, but being so scared of what was on the other side... In that 5 years I went from being a comedian (in the loosest sense) to a baker (that was very brief) to an actor (kinda) and many things inbetween, at each step she supported me and casually asked me - 'how's the singing going'...
I realise now, that the reason that I'd tried all these things was not because I was exploring options, but because I was scared - what if the singing went badly, the rejection of the no-thank-yous and of the bitchiness of other people and of the fear of not being good enough... but also I was scared of doing well - what if I got lots of gigs? How would I cope? It would be a total change of live - Could I handle it?
It may have taken me a while, but I did it, I opened the door... and what was behind was better than I could have hoped for...
This post is for Dee - thank you for believing in me x.